This morning I woke up at 745 and got all the way to my apartment and remembered that I left my back pack at Chris' apartment. So I drove all the way back there and got my back pack and rushed back to my apartment to get ready for class on time. I got to class a few minutes before 9 when I remembered that my class starts at 930 and not 9...I've got too much on my mind and should just go back to bed until tomorrow.

Loner Lyfe Lolz

It's been a good couple weeks since I took the plunge and moved.

I have to say it was pretty impulsive of me. I don't think anyone took me seriously when I said I wanted to move... I don't think I even took myself seriously until it finally came down to the actual move. I'm still unsure of where I will end up but I'm not too worried about it right now. I don't know if I'll be working or if I'll be alone down here or if I will really finish my credits in time to transfer, but honestly I think I'm okay with that. The fact that I have the time to think all of those uncertainties through is enough for me right now. These uncertainties terrify me but I think even if I experience some set backs I will manage to get back to being happy here.

In the past two weeks I have listened to more music than I have in months. One night I even went to Barnes and Noble by myself and I wasn't just going to splurge on Starbucks. I sat down alone and read through some books and looked at some art. I know very little about art, but I know what I like and I now have weird collages all over my new walls. No one has seen them yet to confess to me how unorganized they look but I like them...so for now, they stay.
I've gone for a run or a walk almost every day and on days I didn't I adventured around the surrounding areas in my car, trying to get acquainted. This weekend when I had to go to my Mom's for some family functions I counted down the hours until I could leave without being rude. So for now I really like it here and I'm really happy.

Hoping for the best but expecting the worst...

The past week or so have been pretty good.
Stoked to be done with work but not stoked on being broke soon.

I can't believe school starts tomorrow... this summer went by way too fast.

If you told me that this is where I'd be a year ago I wouldn't believe it.
A lot has changed but I'm pretty excited to see where it goes.
Only thing I wish I had now was some more time to settle before school tomorrow but the weekend isn't too far away.

I should really start running again.

Trusting people has started to become almost impossible.
I'm paranoid about everything.
I need to relax.

I'm really nervous that all the plans I have for next semester are not going to be as great as I have anticipated. I suppose the nervousness is normal I just can't help but wonder if I'm making the right decision. I'm also very excited but it is just getting closer and closer and I'm anxious.

blah. blah. blah.

Friends are dropping like flies.
Never been more ready to start over.

I don't like posting on here anymore.
I write a lot of stuff and then end up deleting it because i don't think anyone really reads it and i don't really care all that much.

I'm boring.
bye.

You're young until you're not
You love until you don't
You try until you can't

You laugh until you cry
You cry until you laugh
And everyone must breathe
Until their dying breath