Hoping for the best but expecting the worst...

The past week or so have been pretty good.
Stoked to be done with work but not stoked on being broke soon.

I can't believe school starts tomorrow... this summer went by way too fast.

If you told me that this is where I'd be a year ago I wouldn't believe it.
A lot has changed but I'm pretty excited to see where it goes.
Only thing I wish I had now was some more time to settle before school tomorrow but the weekend isn't too far away.

I should really start running again.

Trusting people has started to become almost impossible.
I'm paranoid about everything.
I need to relax.

I'm really nervous that all the plans I have for next semester are not going to be as great as I have anticipated. I suppose the nervousness is normal I just can't help but wonder if I'm making the right decision. I'm also very excited but it is just getting closer and closer and I'm anxious.

blah. blah. blah.

Friends are dropping like flies.
Never been more ready to start over.

I don't like posting on here anymore.
I write a lot of stuff and then end up deleting it because i don't think anyone really reads it and i don't really care all that much.

I'm boring.
bye.

You're young until you're not
You love until you don't
You try until you can't

You laugh until you cry
You cry until you laugh
And everyone must breathe
Until their dying breath

Back to reality.

I've had a lot of fun running away from my life for a while.
I hadn't slept in my own bed in over a week and I didn't miss it one bit.

Now I'm back to the same old routines that have been my life for the past month or so.
Wake up work come home crash...repeat 5 out of the 7 days in the week.

As of recently my life has become a constant extreme of ups and downs.
The only things I look forward to now are more of the ups and hopefully getting away again soon and seeing people who matter.

Dreamed I was a fireman.
I just smoked and watched you burn.
Dreamed I was an astronaut.
I shot you down like a juggernaut.

Dreamed we were still going out.
Had that one a few times now.
Woke up to find we were not.
It's good to be awake.

Dreamed I was a tidal wave.
I ravaged your coast,
There were no survivors.
Dreamed I was your landlord.
I showed you place when you had lovers.
If I was a vampire,
I wouldn't suck your blood.
Then I dreamed I was you.
Sweetest dream I have had.
If you could hear the dreams I've had, my dear,
They would give you nightmares for a week.

But you're not here and I can never sleep.
Come home so I can be a creep.

Dreamed I was a dream.
I stole you away in your sleep.
Saved you from a fire,
A gun for hire,
I introduced you to a vampire.
A wave crashed on the beach.
We rolled around in its foamy grasp.
Kissing in the chaos of a kelpy sea.
Seems I couldn't save you from me.

Maybe I'm obsessive to think like this.
Probably not impressing you with my cheap tricks.
Honey, it's depressing what depression does to some.
I'll play the part for hours
But I know you'll never come.