Back to reality.

I've had a lot of fun running away from my life for a while.
I hadn't slept in my own bed in over a week and I didn't miss it one bit.

Now I'm back to the same old routines that have been my life for the past month or so.
Wake up work come home crash...repeat 5 out of the 7 days in the week.

As of recently my life has become a constant extreme of ups and downs.
The only things I look forward to now are more of the ups and hopefully getting away again soon and seeing people who matter.

Dreamed I was a fireman.
I just smoked and watched you burn.
Dreamed I was an astronaut.
I shot you down like a juggernaut.

Dreamed we were still going out.
Had that one a few times now.
Woke up to find we were not.
It's good to be awake.

Dreamed I was a tidal wave.
I ravaged your coast,
There were no survivors.
Dreamed I was your landlord.
I showed you place when you had lovers.
If I was a vampire,
I wouldn't suck your blood.
Then I dreamed I was you.
Sweetest dream I have had.
If you could hear the dreams I've had, my dear,
They would give you nightmares for a week.

But you're not here and I can never sleep.
Come home so I can be a creep.

Dreamed I was a dream.
I stole you away in your sleep.
Saved you from a fire,
A gun for hire,
I introduced you to a vampire.
A wave crashed on the beach.
We rolled around in its foamy grasp.
Kissing in the chaos of a kelpy sea.
Seems I couldn't save you from me.

Maybe I'm obsessive to think like this.
Probably not impressing you with my cheap tricks.
Honey, it's depressing what depression does to some.
I'll play the part for hours
But I know you'll never come.

205 Plum Street

I kind of miss...
Lombardy market
Bike girl
Einstein
Tiny balcony chillerz
On-Demand
and even Lewis

this
is
not
my
life

but i WILL have a good day tomorrow.

Everything is starting to happen so fast and I'm not ready for any of it.
When did summer become more stressful than fall?

Stuck

Nothing I can do can make this any better or any worse.
I've never felt more betrayed, abandoned or taken advantage of by this many people.
But you can only blame yourself, and I'm really the only one to blame.
Everyone sucks.

I'm completely exhausted.
I'm exhausted physically, mentally, and emotionally.
The only thing I'm looking forward to is hopefully finally getting some sleep and going here more often.



I've had the longest week and it is only going to be followed by the longest summer and that isn't a good thing as of how things are now...




Here I rest where disappointment and regret collide lying awake at night.

Why the FUCK am I parked on 64 right now!?

I'm going fucking crazy right now I'm in the worst fucking mood I just want to go home and there is a cop blocking traffic on 64 for god knows what at 1130pm.
I hate everything.
Stoked on waking up for work at 7am!