Stuck

Nothing I can do can make this any better or any worse.
I've never felt more betrayed, abandoned or taken advantage of by this many people.
But you can only blame yourself, and I'm really the only one to blame.
Everyone sucks.

I'm completely exhausted.
I'm exhausted physically, mentally, and emotionally.
The only thing I'm looking forward to is hopefully finally getting some sleep and going here more often.



I've had the longest week and it is only going to be followed by the longest summer and that isn't a good thing as of how things are now...




Here I rest where disappointment and regret collide lying awake at night.

Why the FUCK am I parked on 64 right now!?

I'm going fucking crazy right now I'm in the worst fucking mood I just want to go home and there is a cop blocking traffic on 64 for god knows what at 1130pm.
I hate everything.
Stoked on waking up for work at 7am!

"It's hard to look in the mirror these days when everyone has everything you'd rather be."

It sucks that I have to work the rest of the summer and won't have much time for anything. I just started summer vacation and it is basically over for me already.
I guess I just hope to find some time and some people to join me on some road trips. I think I would be down for any where other than here.
But...
I hate trying to talk to my friends and not getting any responses.
I hate living here and I hate living alone.
Maybe if I can get myself to sleep long enough I will wake up and be okay again.

Yep, it is official...this summer is going to suck!

Honestly, I'm not very stoked for summer.
Chris is moving back to the beach.
I'm probably going to be working too much.
My living situation is looking stressful.

Let's just see if I even get through the last week of school.

I feel like I'm losing myself.

I don't know how everything got so messed up so quickly.

I'm trying so hard to be okay and I'm not having fun.
Getting called busted by dudes I don't even know isn't fun to me and I don't know why apparently some girls are cool with that. I feel like I'm losing a lot of my friends and the only one I have to blame is myself. It sucks to be walking home alone and just needing someone to talk to and not being able to get in touch with anyone.

The only things I have learned so far are that...
Staying out late doesn't make coming home alone any easier.
Monster energy drinks don't make you have energy they just make you feel like shit.
And as many times as I think things are finally working out in my life I am still wrong.

I just want to fall asleep and wake up a month ago.

The only thing that stays constant in my life is that when one bad thing happens a million other bad things happen too.






What an AWESOME week!