My horoscopes have been letting me down...

anyways i've had a good couple of days.
lost of hang outs, lots of kool kidz.
chris, josh, erika, allison, ethan, pk, camryn, dub, etc...

land rover drives
stealing with my dad
high school parties
chasing jonathon hodges
dub being a wigger

i think this is the first week i've gone to every class AND gone to work since school started... thats a big accomplishment.

stoked on the weekend!
...also 19 a week from today!

Oo La La.

Horoscope 10/08/08 - A friend will offer you unsolicited advice that could hold the key to a new romance.

Random.

Horoscope 10/07/08 - Today a voice of authority reveals that they don't know everything after all!

I'm feeling pretty good today even though i got little sleep last night. I just took a pretty crucial nap even though it wasn't for too long i feel refreshed. I just put on some Lauryn Hill unplugged and snoozed on a full stomach of Chipotle. I really love water with lemons...it completes my Chipotle experience every time i go now. Also I've realized home completely selfish I am which is really disgusting but i'm working on it.
Anyways the maintenance people came and fixed our toilet and sprayed for bugs even though we never called and asked them to. They totally had the wrong apartment lol at them. My "i" key is being weird fucking Theo did something to it.
Downloaded Ace of Base lastnight thank god.
Birthday = T-10 days
Buy me Starbucks iced vanilla lattes

Exhausted.

Horoscope 10/06/08 - Things are going to be unpredictable today, so watch out for last minutes changes.

Stoked on overdrawing my bank account.

Lauryn Hill keeps me real.

Last night was horrible.

Horoscope 10/05/08 - You're smart enough to know your limits, so when you see one today, stop and wait.

I trust no one and I'm more confused than ever.

Decision Time.

Horoscope 10/03/08 - Today you will work with someone who balances your strengths and helps you think.

Hopefully this is true because I really need some help thinking.

I'm in the worst situation. No matter what decision I make I'm going to upset someone and I really don't want to. I've been avoiding making a decision for a week now and I can't live this double life for much longer. I've resorted to my main way of decision making that i've used used in the past...weighing the pros and cons. If you don't believe that I'm the queen of pros and cons list let me just draw a visual of how serious I am about pros and cons list.

One Sunday I was reading Post Secret and the first thing I thought when I saw this was oh my god someone found my list.

Anyways after much deliberation listing the pros and cons of my current situation, they tied 6 to 6, so no help there. I just keep feeling like i've been here before and that my life keeps repeating itself and that this problem is one i've come across before. If you don't know what I'm talking about refer back to my past 4 relationships starting at Summer 07.

The Real Problem:
Me - Always trying to make everything work and everyone happy.
Everyone else - Always making it hard for me to make everything work and everyone happy.

People always say just do what makes YOU happy. Well what makes me happy is making others happy so knowing that i'm going to be a huge jerk to someone doesn't make me happy. Its a lose lose situation, I just have to pick the loser and right now the loser is me because i'm about to lose it all.

Sleep Deprived.

Horoscope 10/01/08 - Whatever you do today should not be all about money -- quit thinking about profit.


Lastnight me and a few people walked to kroger just to get a few things and to kill time. So we were walking down aisle after aisle and when we reached aisle 10, the alcohol aisle, there was an old man in one of those electric shopping carts uncontrollably shaking. Our first assumption is that this dude was having a seizure right in the middle of the grocery store. He was just sitting there shaking for kind of a long time. We weren't really sure what to do so we asked if he was ok and surprisingly he responded and said he was ok. He looked like he was about to fall out of his motorized cart. I kind of questioned if it was safe for him to be buying alcohol. Anyways after we laughed uncontrollably like assholes just because of how strange this was we went and told a kroger employee who then got a security guard. By this point he had gotten up and was slowly walking around but was still shaking pretty badly. The security guard and the manager went to talk to him and we were then informed that thats just how that man was. The security guard told us that the old man was fine and that he had been shopping for the past three hours and was just looking from some clams. What the fuck!? The want to be cop/security guard was kind of an asshole actually, like tried to make us feel bad for assuming this guy was having a seizure. Fuck cops.

Anyways for the past week or so i haven't been sleeping very much which is whatever... i've had some good times and its been worth it but around 12 i decided to head home early. While walking home in a monsoon of a storm lastnight i was just really looking forward to getting in bed before 1am and sleeping.
So i got home dried off and got in bed. Around 230am i got a phone call. Annoyed i didnt look to see who it was and i just hit the button that silences my phone. Well one call turned into two which turned into three which turned into loud knocking on my front door. I was half asleep and confused on what was going on so i kind of just rolled over and tried to go back to sleep. Amira eventually got up and got the door. I guess i should be more concerned if people are knocking on my door in the middle of the night like amira was but apparently it didn't phase me. Anyways it was just jordan and chris trying to hang out at 3am...no big deal? They then decided it was a good idea to cannon ball into my bed and keep me awake for a few hours. Needless to say i was stoked for my 9am class.